Somewhere in the forest
A wolf cries to the moon
So I begin to ponder
Alone here in my room
As to what the wolf is after
When it calls out to the moon
I think I thought of something
But I fell asleep too soon.
To Fight the DarkFrom the light in my room,
I see the night outside
As it eats and consumes
On its treacherous ride
Everyone screams and cries
Giving into the night
None ever even try
To be brave for the light
There are those who stand,
I myself am included,
That won’t give into the hand
That won’t ever be deluded
Alone, we fight for days and weeks
Searching for a soul to share the pain
Once found, we can end the days so bleak
Once found, everyone will know our names
Quietly, GentlyShy smiles and fluttering butterflies,
My heart would beat faster when I looked into your eyes.
Even then, as I held you warmly in my arms,
Every word you said put me under your charm.
Dozing off, I sent you a little smile.
And told you that it’s fine to fall asleep for a while.
When you awoke, the sun was setting for its own time to sleep.
So I pulled you close and breathed in so deep.
Quietly, in the dark, I slowly fell in love.
Gently in my arms, I called you my little dove.
Screaming SomethingThere was something about your eyes
That just screamed “Save me!”
If you could only just scream out to.
Everyone to save you from.
There are just so many to save you
From. How I wish I could help.
I tried to look in your eyes and say to you
“Trust me! I can’t stand watching you hate it!
I could never stand watching you hate me!”
But your eyes went blank; I could see how
You stopped to look, no longer searching,
And you glared at me, knowing that I couldn’t
Look at you.
Broken, you watch as my heart is broken,
With a blank face and screaming eyes.
Painful words slither out of your mouth’s
Barely open like the tears that wanted to
Stream down your face, while you scream
Out your hate for the world, instead you
Mutter your hate for me, and I scream instead.
Broken pleas are all I can hear.
Far AwayI don’t see how you could want anything from me.
I’m cold and I’m gone and I won’t ever be
There for you, even though I know how you
Need me to; it’s what I want too.
But I’m lost in a land far away from all others.
It’s dark and unknown without my sisters and brothers,
So I scream out. Why am I lost in this way?
Why do I watch you all suffer and do nothing every single day?
I know that all that I am to the people around
Is a cruel twister of words who brings everyone down.
That’s all I am to me, at least.
But there are people who stick around this cruel beast.
So I can’t be all that terrible, right?
If so, why do I feel like a pitiably sad sight?
1-1-6-6In due time
The greenest leaves
Will all begin to brown
And tumble gently to the ground
In every being's life
Everything begins to fade
As they're covered by the shade
Of what destiny begins
As one curtain is drawn closed
A sliver of light shines through
That foreshadows what is next in line
And destiny prepares itself for yet another time
You Ought To KnowNow you ought to know
How much I don’t show
To anyone or anything
Does that have a familiar ring?
Now, I bet you don’t know about my low self-esteem
And I’m sure you couldn’t tell me what it is that I dream
About late at night when everyone else is asleep
Because you’ve never taken time to venture into the deep
But you ought to know what I know
About how you’ve learned to grow
From your own dark past
Like I said, it would never last
I know why you cry all alone
And I know the meaning behind every little groan
I have opened all the doors that you shut so tight
But careful I will be to never let in the light
I think you should know that I am not mad
I just feel that your attitude can make me a bit sad
But this wind between us will not blow me away
Even though I’m upset, know that I’m here to stay.
Escape from the PoisonAn ocean of poison
Has gained hold of me
I've set off to new horizons
With the hope I'll be free
But storms stand in the way of
The escape from this misery
No longer I'll be holden
By the poison of the sea
Give Up/Stay HerePlease give up in your search for me
I have crossed insurmountable seas
Past towering waves and crushing rain
And past the issues in my messed up brain
Do not follow me past this river bend
It is here we should part, and our paths end.
And I don’t care what you say about being together
This is for you, not for me, I’m a burden on your feathers
Selfish boy, just listen to what you say!
Does it matter not what I want at the end of the day?
There is no sea too large to be crossed
My boat will not sink in this ocean of dross
Stop kidding yourself and calling me free
When you lock me up and say it will not be
Come back so I can make your choice something to rue
Come back so I can shout that I love you.
AnxietiesHands over ears, screams hide the tears
Like monsters, they stand around, eerie and cruel
Grotesque and uncontrolled
They drive me to the point of collapse
So I do.
I’m the ground
I shake and tremble and tear everything down
I am the ground
I don’t understand how anyone stays around me
When I’m like this
I’m like a stone
Rolling out of control
Loud and predictable, we all know where I’m going
Down, as sure as water, I will fall
And as a boulder, I will tear down everything in my path
InsomniaWaking in the dead of night
Wondering about my life
All the things I've left undone
How did things go so wrong
I lay here drenched in sweat
Haunted by the old regrets
Trying to stay awake
Frightened by my dreamscape
Stay up until the dawn
Go to work with face drawn
I struggle on through the day
People curiously glance my way
I finally make my way home
Wait for the cycle to go on
Dreaming of YouEvery night I dream of you
wishing upon a star
that you were here for real
Every night I lay in bed
a dream so wonderful
cause you are in it
I dream of being with you
to grow old together
a day never apart
only you are in my thoughts
A feeling so wonderful
it is in my heart
the love that grows
stronger each day
Every night I think of you
our love is for real
you are always here
I dream of happiness
being with you all the time
a dream so magical
that everything seem so real
you are here with me
keeping me safe
throughout the night
After all it is just a dream
but I promise you
that one day it will be real
So for now I will just dream
of seeing you in sight
cause some day it will happen
that you will be in my arms
AnxietyIcy fingers in my aching gut
Throat swelling completely shut
I lay shake and leak out tears
Unable to escape my fears
I don't even know what they are
The things that have driven me this far
I hold my hand to the burning incense
My only solace in pain intense
The cracking flesh relieves my mind
Helps my anxiety to unwind
ScarsStanding in the shower
Skin turning redder
I stay still and soak it in
This water won't erase my sins
Scars stand out bright white
Burns and cuts all in sight
The real scars cannot be seen
They reside inside of me
I wonder if all I will be
is a creature scarred eternally?
FightThe fight of the life
The life of the fight
You’ll die tonight
I’ll die tomorrow
You lost your fight
I've gained my sorrow
What doesn't kill us makes us stronger
As time goes by we’re getting older
But we’re getting weaker everyday
In those battles we lost our strength
We fear ourselves cause we are monsters
Though we'll shine brighter than the solstice
And we are beautiful in horrific way
But still getting weaker everyday
We fight because we love
We love that’s why we fight
We will remain in shining glory
In the name of war and endless sorrow
And we’ll be fighting for immortal life
Fighting till the end, until we all die…
numbersi can watch the shadows shake like my muscles jump and my neurons laugh at the taste, but i'm not sure we agreed to stay and the monster beneath my skin is begging for delay.
i might give it all just a little more time to settle but the next step is explaining to four why twenty-one is crying and seventeen has angry smiles and eighteen is dangling from the rope, engorged with pills, and choking.
something about burning but twenty-one, twenty, and nineteen all love the fire. they all hate the lighter after seventeen, but who knew?
sixteen is confused and tired of playing puppet and fifteen is still trying to find the easiest slice.
fourteen keeps her eyes open but can't accept anything is different, but the way they stopped eating after thirteen is noticeable and someone else's cancer is going to find those missing pounds.
they jumped inside her veins, but that's exactly why she tried to cut them out, and twelve sees forty-two as the end and doesn't know if hiding from him works
Swing life awayGoodbye my dear old friend
How I wished it did not have to end
How we laughed and sang
Together with the whole gang
Goodbye my dear friend
How I wished that changes that now impend
How we once compared our scars
How we once gazed at the lone stars
Goodbye my friend
How we stood together till the end
How our days were filled with laughter and joy
How you made fun of me being a mama’s boy
Our time was not misspend
We will meet again one day
And we shall swing life away
With or Without YouYou have been standing there behind this glass for a long time
I see you standing there, wanting to be free
Wanting to be free from your own situations
I see you waiting there for me to return
Nothing more than an emotionless face
Just starring there, a glare of emptiness
Now, only if I can make a smile
Only if you can believe me that I still care about you
Only if you can believe me that try my best to cherish you
Only if you can believe me that we can make this work
Look deep, down in your heart
There is pain that you have
Pain that is unbearable but you still carry it
But it is neither a pain of misery nor a pain of sadness
It is a pain of missing, to be without
It can't be irreplaceable
All you have is hope, hope that something will change
A burden to be lifted, no let it be found by joy and richness of others around you
To be fulfill with me
So I put my hand the glass, gently yours comes up too
I feel that you are so close but yet so far away
Looking at your long black hair, your
She lodges her fingers down her throat.
Clasping onto the wall as she recklessly chokes.
She reinserts her fingers back in forcibly.
Deliriously trying to make her body thinner.
She swoons and slumps to the floor nauseously
As she attempts to regurgitate her dinner.
Her throat aches as she screeches out coarsely,
With her hand covering the image in the mirror.
Her head now rests on the on the rim of the toilet seat.
She wants to eat but she just has not got in her.
She desperately begins to scream out inaudibly.
Her mouth now tastes of something pulpy and bitter.
She examines the red color of the fluid cautiously.
Realizing that she has become too focused on her figure.
Her friend then knocks on the door thoughtfully.
She shouts out, "I'm okay I don't need a baby sitter."
Her friend continues to knock and waits outside awkwardly
Replying, "You promised me, you said that you are not a quitter"
The tap begins to run as she disguises her cough distortedly.
She knows her friend
DancerDancer in my mind
You used to dance so beautifully
You now spend your days sitting there
Dismantling my life
Why can’t you just stop?
Let things go back to how they were?
Well, I can’t handle you anymore
Destroying me from within
So I am telling you now
Today is the day I let you go
Go dance your magical dance
Somewhere other than here
For you are no longer welcome
Goodbye, dear Dancer
Live Joyously with someone else
SoulsPure thought and emotion,
Existing only to live,
After a troubled death.
Unable to store memories,
They wander without destination,
Beings whose only experiences,
Were created in the past.
Sometimes they are trapped,
A single moment in time.
Most find peace, however,
And cease to subsist.
the clockwork liari. we dusted dreams off people like the first snowflakes of the season. you'd take one and rest it on the center of your tongue because you hated the taste of ice cream and wanted to reset what cold tasted like to you.
you taught me that the cold could be bitter, and so could people's dreams.
you drank out of out-of-order wells because you believed they still worked and that the government was keeping it all to itself.
i never realized how insane you made me before i wrote this all down.
ii. i wished on the sun because i ran out of shooting stars.
and just to spite me, you began wishing on raindrops because you believed that they were so many, one of them was bound to remember you.
but we both ended up laughing hysterically with protruding knives on a bloodstained floor, didn't we?
iii. i talked to clockwork towers and told them to lie because if they stopped for just a while, all the time in the world would seize.
one human, two human
because i have toimpaled
& wreaking havoc on these
more than endorphins &
planes out of control
pretending that if
instilled in bedsheets
A GODDESSA Goddess
full of beauty
full of grace
full of love
full of kindness
full of good
full of pureness
radiant like the sun
warm like summer
shining like the stars
smooth like silk
sparkling like the stars
dazzling like the blue ocean
sweet like music
enchanting like a symphony
divine like the world
eternal like the universe.
is a Goddess
always and forever.
Copyright © 2012 by Philip Brocklehurst
All Rights Reserved
Dear MoonNothing is worse
Than when you are new
The night is so vapid
Without that delicate light
Being cast upon us
But it's not so bad
At least, not anymore
For now i have someone
That reminds me of your allure
When you are absent from the sky
I long for your return
So maybe you'll return the favor
And remind me of her