Somewhere in the forest
A wolf cries to the moon
So I begin to ponder
Alone here in my room
As to what the wolf is after
When it calls out to the moon
I think I thought of something
But I fell asleep too soon.
Screaming SomethingThere was something about your eyes
That just screamed “Save me!”
If you could only just scream out to.
Everyone to save you from.
There are just so many to save you
From. How I wish I could help.
I tried to look in your eyes and say to you
“Trust me! I can’t stand watching you hate it!
I could never stand watching you hate me!”
But your eyes went blank; I could see how
You stopped to look, no longer searching,
And you glared at me, knowing that I couldn’t
Look at you.
Broken, you watch as my heart is broken,
With a blank face and screaming eyes.
Painful words slither out of your mouth’s
Barely open like the tears that wanted to
Stream down your face, while you scream
Out your hate for the world, instead you
Mutter your hate for me, and I scream instead.
Broken pleas are all I can hear.
Far AwayI don’t see how you could want anything from me.
I’m cold and I’m gone and I won’t ever be
There for you, even though I know how you
Need me to; it’s what I want too.
But I’m lost in a land far away from all others.
It’s dark and unknown without my sisters and brothers,
So I scream out. Why am I lost in this way?
Why do I watch you all suffer and do nothing every single day?
I know that all that I am to the people around
Is a cruel twister of words who brings everyone down.
That’s all I am to me, at least.
But there are people who stick around this cruel beast.
So I can’t be all that terrible, right?
If so, why do I feel like a pitiably sad sight?
To Fight the DarkFrom the light in my room,
I see the night outside
As it eats and consumes
On its treacherous ride
Everyone screams and cries
Giving into the night
None ever even try
To be brave for the light
There are those who stand,
I myself am included,
That won’t give into the hand
That won’t ever be deluded
Alone, we fight for days and weeks
Searching for a soul to share the pain
Once found, we can end the days so bleak
Once found, everyone will know our names
Quietly, GentlyShy smiles and fluttering butterflies,
My heart would beat faster when I looked into your eyes.
Even then, as I held you warmly in my arms,
Every word you said put me under your charm.
Dozing off, I sent you a little smile.
And told you that it’s fine to fall asleep for a while.
When you awoke, the sun was setting for its own time to sleep.
So I pulled you close and breathed in so deep.
Quietly, in the dark, I slowly fell in love.
Gently in my arms, I called you my little dove.
1-1-6-6In due time
The greenest leaves
Will all begin to brown
And tumble gently to the ground
In every being's life
Everything begins to fade
As they're covered by the shade
Of what destiny begins
As one curtain is drawn closed
A sliver of light shines through
That foreshadows what is next in line
And destiny prepares itself for yet another time
You Ought To KnowNow you ought to know
How much I don’t show
To anyone or anything
Does that have a familiar ring?
Now, I bet you don’t know about my low self-esteem
And I’m sure you couldn’t tell me what it is that I dream
About late at night when everyone else is asleep
Because you’ve never taken time to venture into the deep
But you ought to know what I know
About how you’ve learned to grow
From your own dark past
Like I said, it would never last
I know why you cry all alone
And I know the meaning behind every little groan
I have opened all the doors that you shut so tight
But careful I will be to never let in the light
I think you should know that I am not mad
I just feel that your attitude can make me a bit sad
But this wind between us will not blow me away
Even though I’m upset, know that I’m here to stay.
FamilyFamily is perfection, loving and stable
The people you can go to, or just share food at the table
They inspire and they encourage for each to show their best
And they give you a home to come lay down in and rest
Family is a hell, full of pain and confusion
But none of what he does will break mother’s illusion
I cannot buy into the lies that she claims
But it still always hurts to be called the one to blame…
My family is proud, successful and strong
Set up in a way where nothing could ever go wrong
We stand by each other and smile with every new chance
To show our love for each other, and all together dance
There’s a broken bottle on the floor
Its contents flung on the a scratched up door
Mother’s tears are slowly drowning her
And all she can see is a dull grey blur
In the middle, you will find only me
With a brother and a sister, three
My parents are proud of each
For how we practice what we preach
I curl up in my empty room
Covering my ears, I hum a tune
AnxietiesHands over ears, screams hide the tears
Like monsters, they stand around, eerie and cruel
Grotesque and uncontrolled
They drive me to the point of collapse
So I do.
I’m the ground
I shake and tremble and tear everything down
I am the ground
I don’t understand how anyone stays around me
When I’m like this
I’m like a stone
Rolling out of control
Loud and predictable, we all know where I’m going
Down, as sure as water, I will fall
And as a boulder, I will tear down everything in my path
ScarsStanding in the shower
Skin turning redder
I stay still and soak it in
This water won't erase my sins
Scars stand out bright white
Burns and cuts all in sight
The real scars cannot be seen
They reside inside of me
I wonder if all I will be
is a creature scarred eternally?
the clockwork liari. we dusted dreams off people like the first snowflakes of the season. you'd take one and rest it on the center of your tongue because you hated the taste of ice cream and wanted to reset what cold tasted like to you.
you taught me that the cold could be bitter, and so could people's dreams.
you drank out of out-of-order wells because you believed they still worked and that the government was keeping it all to itself.
i never realized how insane you made me before i wrote this all down.
ii. i wished on the sun because i ran out of shooting stars.
and just to spite me, you began wishing on raindrops because you believed that they were so many, one of them was bound to remember you.
but we both ended up laughing hysterically with protruding knives on a bloodstained floor, didn't we?
iii. i talked to clockwork towers and told them to lie because if they stopped for just a while, all the time in the world would seize.
one human, two human
Dreaming of YouEvery night I dream of you
wishing upon a star
that you were here for real
Every night I lay in bed
a dream so wonderful
cause you are in it
I dream of being with you
to grow old together
a day never apart
only you are in my thoughts
A feeling so wonderful
it is in my heart
the love that grows
stronger each day
Every night I think of you
our love is for real
you are always here
I dream of happiness
being with you all the time
a dream so magical
that everything seem so real
you are here with me
keeping me safe
throughout the night
After all it is just a dream
but I promise you
that one day it will be real
So for now I will just dream
of seeing you in sight
cause some day it will happen
that you will be in my arms
Thank You, Dear FriendsWhy am I still here
When I should be down
On the ground
Curled up in a ball
Feeling nothing but pain
Why are they still here
All of my friends
Surrounding me each day
Did I do something
To deserve to have them
I don't think so
But I am glad they are here
For without them
I would most certainly be broken
Thank you dear friends
For not turning your backs on me
Even when I am in my darkest hour
Silent LoveI see through the windows of your soul
And although the silence has never been broken
And the words have never been spoken
Your eyes tell me all.
I never did feel as comfortable as I did with you
I know you felt good, too.
I won't forget your eyes open wide
To the beauty of a sunset tide.
When I needed you, you were always by my side
In the dark you were my guide
The best friend I could have,
You always had me in awe.
But your eyes, they warned me that friendship is all you could give,
I never thought you wouldn't forgive.
Now I spill my sorrow in room of black
But that won't bring you back.
The silence has been broken
And the words have been spoken
There are bars of steel on windows
And your eyes are telling me nothing at all.
With or Without YouYou have been standing there behind this glass for a long time
I see you standing there, wanting to be free
Wanting to be free from your own situations
I see you waiting there for me to return
Nothing more than an emotionless face
Just starring there, a glare of emptiness
Now, only if I can make a smile
Only if you can believe me that I still care about you
Only if you can believe me that try my best to cherish you
Only if you can believe me that we can make this work
Look deep, down in your heart
There is pain that you have
Pain that is unbearable but you still carry it
But it is neither a pain of misery nor a pain of sadness
It is a pain of missing, to be without
It can't be irreplaceable
All you have is hope, hope that something will change
A burden to be lifted, no let it be found by joy and richness of others around you
To be fulfill with me
So I put my hand the glass, gently yours comes up too
I feel that you are so close but yet so far away
Looking at your long black hair, your
Swing life awayGoodbye my dear old friend
How I wished it did not have to end
How we laughed and sang
Together with the whole gang
Goodbye my dear friend
How I wished that changes that now impend
How we once compared our scars
How we once gazed at the lone stars
Goodbye my friend
How we stood together till the end
How our days were filled with laughter and joy
How you made fun of me being a mama’s boy
Our time was not misspend
We will meet again one day
And we shall swing life away
She lodges her fingers down her throat.
Clasping onto the wall as she recklessly chokes.
She reinserts her fingers back in forcibly.
Deliriously trying to make her body thinner.
She swoons and slumps to the floor nauseously
As she attempts to regurgitate her dinner.
Her throat aches as she screeches out coarsely,
With her hand covering the image in the mirror.
Her head now rests on the on the rim of the toilet seat.
She wants to eat but she just has not got in her.
She desperately begins to scream out inaudibly.
Her mouth now tastes of something pulpy and bitter.
She examines the red color of the fluid cautiously.
Realizing that she has become too focused on her figure.
Her friend then knocks on the door thoughtfully.
She shouts out, "I'm okay I don't need a baby sitter."
Her friend continues to knock and waits outside awkwardly
Replying, "You promised me, you said that you are not a quitter"
The tap begins to run as she disguises her cough distortedly.
She knows her friend
Wake up now, my dear old friendWake up now, my dear old friend,
Your daily sleep has reached its end.
Embrace your worldly cares once more
And take one step outside your door;
You’ll find there, waiting for you still,
The tasks and deeds you’ve to fulfill
So do not waste another ray,
Get up, get up and start your day.
You’ll have your sleep again tonight
And when you do, you will sleep tight
But until such times are near,
Get up, wake up, today is here.
Dear MoonNothing is worse
Than when you are new
The night is so vapid
Without that delicate light
Being cast upon us
But it's not so bad
At least, not anymore
For now i have someone
That reminds me of your allure
When you are absent from the sky
I long for your return
So maybe you'll return the favor
And remind me of her
AnxietyIcy fingers in my aching gut
Throat swelling completely shut
I lay shake and leak out tears
Unable to escape my fears
I don't even know what they are
The things that have driven me this far
I hold my hand to the burning incense
My only solace in pain intense
The cracking flesh relieves my mind
Helps my anxiety to unwind
FightThe fight of the life
The life of the fight
You’ll die tonight
I’ll die tomorrow
You lost your fight
I've gained my sorrow
What doesn't kill us makes us stronger
As time goes by we’re getting older
But we’re getting weaker everyday
In those battles we lost our strength
We fear ourselves cause we are monsters
Though we'll shine brighter than the solstice
And we are beautiful in horrific way
But still getting weaker everyday
We fight because we love
We love that’s why we fight
We will remain in shining glory
In the name of war and endless sorrow
And we’ll be fighting for immortal life
Fighting till the end, until we all die…
OblivionI would like to drink tonight
For no reason just like that
One glass or maybe two
Just not to think about you
Sometimes I wish to not be sober
To not remember you at all
To forget when we were over
When we stopped being in love
I want to drink a little more
To get drunk up to my soul
To get so lost in alcohol
So it won’t hurt me anymore
A glass of wine and shot of vodka
I still remember, it won’t get over
It hurts like hell and cuts like knife
No matter how hard I will drink tonight
DancerDancer in my mind
You used to dance so beautifully
You now spend your days sitting there
Dismantling my life
Why can’t you just stop?
Let things go back to how they were?
Well, I can’t handle you anymore
Destroying me from within
So I am telling you now
Today is the day I let you go
Go dance your magical dance
Somewhere other than here
For you are no longer welcome
Goodbye, dear Dancer
Live Joyously with someone else
because i have toimpaled
& wreaking havoc on these
more than endorphins &
planes out of control
pretending that if
instilled in bedsheets
SoulsPure thought and emotion,
Existing only to live,
After a troubled death.
Unable to store memories,
They wander without destination,
Beings whose only experiences,
Were created in the past.
Sometimes they are trapped,
A single moment in time.
Most find peace, however,
And cease to subsist.
Why Dogs WhineAn entity of fog, when I cry.
Tearful, woeful, dog like whines.
But I am human,
canines deny the sense of time.
It feels so long, since you died.
Pawing with need,
door riddled in scratches. Writing my goodbyes
Come home when will you?
Silent in dark, striking matches.
Come home, when will you come home?
Palms against the window, tail-a-wagging.
Its been months? Minuets? Years?
I want to believe, you'll come home.
I want to believe, i'm not alone.
I would wave goodbye, but with a sigh;
now I understand
why dogs whine.
InsomniaWaking in the dead of night
Wondering about my life
All the things I've left undone
How did things go so wrong
I lay here drenched in sweat
Haunted by the old regrets
Trying to stay awake
Frightened by my dreamscape
Stay up until the dawn
Go to work with face drawn
I struggle on through the day
People curiously glance my way
I finally make my way home
Wait for the cycle to go on